I start souping up glass shards from the shattered glass table in the living room. I’ve worn my workout shoes so I don’t cut my feet. Glass shards, of a fragmented life.
The chaos that was created in my mind I would benefit from when I trained for the Olympics many years later. Now I was only 7 years old and didn’t show much about, life school. It would hurt, to clear all the broken glass from my childhood. But I had no choice.
I had to make my way through the pain, without anesthetic. It was like watching open wounds and feeling the blood flow down the legs, to the pool on the ground. All the wounds had to drain and only then would I be free.
After that, the journey to the new unexplored land of opportunity began. What would I choose to be. Where would I choose to go. Nothing holds me back and I can find “promised land” for real. It took some time, but was worth every second.
Soon I will launch my new website … then there will be more stories of chaos, but above all development until today.
Mikael Avatar from lighter, state of emergency in Thailand
When the time comes to us. Getting time over, what do you do with life, then? I always hear that when I get time I will do …… ..and then people say a lot of things, what they are going to do.
My experience is that a plan is needed to achieve goals. Action steps, step by step in detail plan. When the actual implementation is done, new opportunities are always created that are impossible to see before I start.
Often it takes time, before I see the effects, of what I have chosen to begin with. I know that change is the only thing that takes me further in my development (see last week’s text).
Things that hinder me are most, external questioning. The views of family and friends. So I have to isolate myself from telling, too soon what my plan is. Otherwise, there is a great risk that people I meet will kill my plan. What I have learned over the years is to trust people who have already done what I intend to do. Listen to them and follow their insights, the process of success. Then the chance is very high that I succeed …
Every morning when I wake up I have millions and again millions of choices, which are possible projects. I am aware of this and choose to limit my choices to only a few projects. Private, occupation and free time. Then I work strategically, creating a template where I step by step take action on the new I want to create.
It is no more difficult than a shopping list. You write what to buy and then you go to the store and buy the things. When it comes to more complicated goals such as becoming an artist or learning a new language or starting to ride, the first step is the same, simply expressed. Step one can be, check if there are evening courses on what you want and then go there… or online courses on the internet (can be difficult to ride on the internet). Talking to more knowledgeable people about what you want certainly saves you years of carving out on your own.
To you who are a constant reader of my texts … do you have any benefit from the texts in your life? and in such cases, how?
To be constantly in processes and development.
The universe is constantly evolving. It is said that the only thing that is constant is change. Everything will not be the same as last year. Everything has changed, it is really among the few things that is guaranteed. So I have to constantly grow and develop to keep up with the developments in the world.
In order to develop, I have to constantly decide on what to take away and what new will take its place. Constant decision: Am I on the right track. Constantly contemplating on what I’m doing now, is this leading to what I really want. Always be on my guard if my progress is optimal.
I’m getting tired just writing this. It’s really hard and time consuming, with all the information. One of my mentors says that I must become an expert at transforming information, to my benefit. Keep away everything that doesn’t affect me and just have focus, on what drives me towards what I want to create.
I get better just taking pictures for my reality, which brings me forward. Read and judge what I read faster. Say no, faster when the information is not essential to me. Turn off the brain so I don’t create new realities all the time.
How does the information society work in your reality?
Catch in life. Fishing lure passes through the air and lands at the edge of the reeds. The pike chops the fishing tackle directly. The pike is a little when it is up on the gray rock. How many hours in my life have I seen the fishing tackle go through the air? Fishing has followed me since childhood. Fishing herring in the spring and pimple perch on the winter, with the ice drill drilling hole after hole. Now only the memories are left of the happiness’s face when the fish nipped. I am chasing completely different things in my life now. The biggest I haven’t had to nip, yet. The happiness of being able to succeed, catching the happiness. So it becomes permanent as an immobile rock by the sea. Happiness is thinner than air and infuses away through the gaps in life’s crackled corridors of cotton-like, air castles. Does it even exist? It is said that you must have a counter-pole in order to experience the other. So the opposite of happiness may be sorrow. Without the grip of grief in the River of Life, happiness cannot be captured.
The cat mom eats up the kittens is a picture I try to push away. But it is not possible and maybe it is the picture that takes me closer to happiness. How many times do I have to face the opposite pole before it becomes permanently anchored in the frozen core of my heart? There are so many questions I can’t answer. Imagine if I could just be ordinary. Don’t philosophize much. Just think of everyday events in life. Jobs, rest, food and where to go next vacation. Simple and concise. I crank the line of life, once again and hope that this catch is what I want most. But once again I am disappointed. Another road choice that gave fiasco. I clear the lure and prepare the next throws. Faith is said to be able to move mountains. I think everything will be better, I throw in the stream of life.
Now I will pull up the catch of the happiness of life that takes me to the stone by the sea, where time stands still and everything is ok….