The road to heaven



Gate to heaven

20 years ago, I chose to walk a new path in my life, just today 20 years ago.
This new way of life, in my life, which may be called the way to heaven. Svenska/swedish, click her

On the wall, in India, 15 years ago, I find writings inscribed in the 3000 year old walls, which describes this. They describe you to go, the narrow road into the unknown, and then you will find your life path.

All other roads lead to misery and despair.

So I’m there now, at the gate of life to heaven?

Absolutely not … do not even have an idea where it is or if it even exists …

20 years ago I was in a house that was not mine. I had lived in me and thought this is life. The dark basement, in the house, I have created in my head was not true. When was the true and everything was my live movie. I strangled the driver, at my train, so I could stop the train of life I was on.


I left my imagination, House / train to find the narrow road to the gates of heaven …

This trip, this road has taken me to many goals and insights. It is said that Thailand is paradise, but a heaven of port I have not seen … but I’ve only been here eight years and not directly looking everywhere …

So the narrow road is perhaps the wrong choice?
Or that I am in a confused state where I think everything could be different.

I see how people are looking and looking for something to hook up life on. External values that should benefit of life revelation.

Some time later discovered that this was not the way, and so change life plan for the seventy eighth time.

My life is in constant change. Not that change is my drug. But that change creates new knowledge and new knowledge to create new experiences. Someone has said that the winner has the most experience.

Maybe I have elite athletic damaged brain, who believe that it is possible to win a life …

Maybe I’ll start looking for a place where there are “least wrong”. For it is wrong everywhere.

Would like to thank everyone who helped me along the way, to find what I am going to find in my life.

The list is long and it would not be right to name names.
When I would write letters of thanks to all who made sure I got six seconds at the Olympic Stadium in Atlanta in 1996 and broke the world record in the long jump, for my injury-class.

The list got more than 150 names when I stopped. I think I would not even have money for stamps to mail them … before the advent of the Internet,  in our lives

To explain, I describe below how I think:
Tyko Johansson may be a person of the crossroads. He got me to run 200 meters on the road Sammakko, in Sweden 1980.

cole-bild-mikaelThe mosquitoes bit and I collapsed in total output and yet I decided to train for the Olympics. It took 16 years before I was in the final of the 200 meters in the Para-Olympics (1996). There, in between all these people on my list of thank you letters I have not posted. Or should I thank my father who hurt my mom so I was palsied and could qualify for the Para-Olympics … .. ???? probably I had been in the regular Olympics unless this happened

If you who read this and understand what a world record, means a person’s life … I wish I could convey this knowledge to all. There is one thing I check off on my list of experiences in my life …… I wonder how many I have left.

Feel good

January 20, 1968, I was born


Suggestive picture of Artist Mikael Avatar

I was born in 1968 on 20 January. It is 49 years ago. A riot childbirth, which created a lifelong cerebral palsy.
Have I chosen to live this life, or that my father chose to mistreat my mother who made my life different?

There is probably no answer to this question, but it is a combination of pulp choices in various intersections throughout life.

I chose to remove my birthday on facebook for not honoring my father’s abuse 49 years ago. Maybe next year I put back the birthday reminder when I will be 50 years. According to Western practice. Thai stretch I turned 50 years. I’m in my 50 years then 50 years … ..

To shake their muscles. every day for 49 years has a price. Nerve damage in my body makes me shake many hours per day. It gets cramps in the muscles and reduces the number of years I can live.



When I work with a development of cerebral palsy, I meet only one who was older than 50 years. My theory is that the seizure makes you start taking painkillers around 40 years and this makes the system stops working before the age of 50 years.

This is one of the reasons that I live in Thailand I have not been hurt as much as in a cold climate.

If I look back 25 years. So half way to 50 years. I am now half way to 100 years (according to the Thai-counting).

When I was 25, my life consisted primarily of two things:

Training and poetry

I trained for the Para-Olympics in Atlanta in 1996 and went on authorship school in Stockholm, Sweden.

So I practiced several hours a day and the remaining hours I wrote poetry. It was my life then. When I was 28 I was in the Para-Olympics and was with my poems in an anthology. At this point, I retired athlete. So what would I do now ….

Did lecture assignments and start searching what is a life ….


Mikael Avatar with wife

Begin to understand that many people I met lived a life that just happened. No plan, but just take a chance that something positive happened when they open the door to the world.

Next 25 years as it looks now, seems to be a musical. My first 25 years living was a lot of music and I had a music mentor until I was 20 years old. Then start the sport seriously, and now the music has come back. So there will be music next 25 years in some form ….

Here ends my thoughts on my birthday

Feel good……


The importance of a coach, part 3 of 5

Part 3 of 5 Dare interview the coach

It’s a two-way communication with you and a coach. You have chosen a coach that inspires or have something you want. But you should interview the coach so that it can deliver things that are adapted to your reality.
Do you coach people with similar goals like me
which process is the coach, where he is on the way
He just wants to do a job, or is he / she is passionate about having you as the apprentice / client.

The aim of the questions is, if your paths come together and you get a common development. If not, you should find another coach mentor. A good coach will say this to you that maybe you should find another coach and a really good coach will refer you to a coach that fits your needs.

I refer constantly people to other coaches for some things, which I know that the other coach does a much better job, what I can do. Since the person back to me and we will continue with the steps that I’m good at.

It is not always the need to meet with the coach, but I refer to youtube movies, books or courses on the subject and more …


Artist Mikael Avatars music videos

Artist Mikael Avatars music videos which he participates:

Sometimes just actors, such as “The Mask,” which is made by Sacha Alexander von Oertzen both music, filming.
In his own production, he makes music and cuts. It will videos where he also films.
Stuart Van Alphen from DroneZone has filmed numerous and “30 days in Ban Phe” filmed by Johnny Stjernvall, Mikael Avatar’s brother.

More videos coming soon

The importance of a coach part 2, Seeing you

Artist Mikael Avatar takes you on 5 videos about the importance of a coach. The theme of each video are as below:

  1. Why have a coach
  2. Seeing you, from your world. The coach will customize for you
  3. Dare interview coach. Interviewer coach you, so that you fit with each other
  4. Aim to have a coach should be clear
  5. You become your own coach

The importance of a coach (1 of 5)

Artist Mikael Avatar takes you on 5 videos about the importance of a coach. The theme of each video are as below:

  1. Why have a coach
  2. Seeing you, from your world. The coach will customize for you
  3. Dare interview coach. Interviewer coach you, so that you fit with each other
  4. Aim to have a coach should be clear
  5. You become your own coach